19/12/2003 - 9:12 p.m.

My stomach hates me. I guess it took exception to having chicken and salad shovelled into it at a rate of knots while I paid attention to my gaming.

H is a smidge off his last holo profession and was busting his hump to get it finished tonight. Didn't work out given he got up in the morning instead of mid afternoon for a change.

I feel guilty coz I slowed him down by calling then slowed him down by mucking up. But it was my last home alone day. i will call him over the break and we will sit and chat as just friends and it will be good. Maybe we won't pick this up again and perhaps that would be good. But somehow I really doubt it - we both fell into it too easy. In RL I think if we didn't want that to happen we would have to make sure we were never in a situation where we could coz sooner or later we would.

My beloved is now on holiday till the 5th of January so he needs a big helping of my time and attention. If I can get him away from the computer either.

Boys and their goddamn toys. Like a girl (or boy, depending on persausion) isn't the best toy of all, grin.

Taking my unhappy stomach to bed

Bels