16/05/2009 - 12:51 p.m.

My sister called last night. She is expecting a baby.

I'd like to be excited for her, start planning how in gods name I'll get up there to see them once the baby arrives. Or maybe just a little bit jealous.

But I can't raise any emotion at all.

Maybe it's this damn cold, thank you the air con in the Hospo building. (I probably got it at the gym but blaming the air-con is somehow more satisfying.)

But it feels right now like every plan, every hope, every dream has crumbled to dust. Just finding a reason to get out of bed seems to take all the energy I have.

But I guess it isn't that bad. I have a stack of marking lined up and I know I will have 3 weeks work in about 2 weeks time.

But still the stuff that really matters...

Bels